中秋节！！！

“谢谢你。。。 因为你走进我无色的世界，让我的世界变成色彩缤纷；
原谅我。。。 因为我的脾气，让欢乐的世界转变成无声的境界；
其实我真的很享受与你同在一起的日子，
希望我们会永远永远，长长久久，
希望我们可以排除万难，开开心心的在一起，
我很享受，希望我们能真的永远生活在我们的记忆里，
而回忆也希望只是甜美的。。。”

这是我留在留言区的字条，我希望可以给某某人看，
但很可惜，她来不及。。。

我今天做了很多第一次，
第一次点歌给重要的人，
第一次为一个人而等了那么久，
第一次不生气等了那么久，
第一次期待那么高。。。

其实我应该生气的，但当我看到她的时候，
我心里就可怜她一下了，因为她很忙，
又是队长， 我就很不该生他的气。。。
所以我就没发脾气，希望她能感受到。。。
但希望日后她可以减少这学事情的发生。。。

Sucksss....

i reali duno wat tey tink de.. is tat rite saying ppl at behind? if it rite, i wil say more... dun get hurt o if u o heard it...
suckssss....
r uni fren wil different from fren from kmph, kb n penang?
i tel u o de real ans...
it ans is totally yes.......
at here jz gt few fren r sincere bt other...
u o dun tink too much...
at ur front n bec is nt same...
so scary ppl here..
at ur front can b gd like angel, bt at ur bec can b scary like devils...
sumtime i oso duno hw i should treat them...
nw i kno d...
i wil let it b..
3 year...
3 year onli.. i can do it...
it nt a long period...
thx ya u o..
help me learn more tat gt wat type of ppl in tis earth again...
help me realise it is sucks when u treat ppl gd bt tey nt...

say me irresponsible...
when u say me, pls tink urself are u responsible?
y oway i go site myself, go shop myself?
i kno i nt cal u o go 2gater ma.. k.. ntg d..
jz release...
life.. life.. i stil nt learn more bout life..
bt i kno life is like tat...
gt many kind of ppl survive in tis life..
gt positive sure gt negative...
gt pros sure gt cons...
n oso gt gd n bad...
calm dwn man...

wat going on?

everyday oso gt smt fan...
is tis uni life?
assignment, lecturer, quiz...
n oso fren...
fren... fren.. fren....
it jz a simple word... bt wan 2 understand it is a difficult ting...
y i should concern it?
i tink so long jz i kno...
coz of tis word fren.. i so concern bout it...
i jz wan o ppl can slow dwn their beat n discuss it peacefully...
wan settle problem is like tis...
if dun settle it faster it wil b a sarcastic ting happen...
if jz tink let it b... i tink it de time 2 lose a fren...
huh..
gambateh....


let i kno wat u o thought...
let tis ting settle it faster...
let me kno fren tis ting wan understand nt so difficult...
pls let me realise it...


14 of august d...
3 day 2 go i wil kno de ans d...
hope it wil a gd ans...
bt nw i scare her wil face a critical problem...
tat is scare she b say by other if she gv me de gd ans..
hope it can pass successfully....

14 of august...
tis is ps fake bday...
tat day she say her bday at tis day...
so i veli gd de...
hapi bday 2 u wo...
hope ur dream n wishes wil cum true...
hapi bday ya...


4 tarzan n jane...
u o jia you o..
fight 4 u o de dream...
tink wisely ya...


my body o pain..
tis is coz by going 2 gym...
bt hope my body after pain is a fit body...
so tat it jz seem it is worth... haha^^

k la...
it time 2 sleep..
chyuan mz jia you o...

等待！！

听着音乐，上着网。。。

想着那天讲的东西。。。

是否太冲动了？？？

让人措手不及。。。

也没有心理准备。。。

是我的错？？？

现在的我只能讲对不起。。。

希望我的等待还有些回报。。。

真不希望一点小错而痛失了机会。。。

希望我还有机会弥补。。。

也让我有机会让你清楚知道什么是希望。。。

君子一言既出，驷马难追。。。

既然讲了出来，现在有的只是等待。。。

等待答案。。。

等待回应。。。

等待我一直要的奇迹。。。

希望这个奇迹会让我们以后饱尝快乐的日子。。。

真希望有这样的一天。。。

好傻的我！！！

做了一个很傻的事情。。。

讲了一些很傻的话。。。

这个就是我。。。

真没想到她是因为那个人而不相信我。。。

算了啦。。。

不管怎样我也必须让她做她自己要做的决定。。。

一个人当他筋疲力尽的时候难道就需要放弃？

难道我就那么经不起考验？

还是我一直以来都自作多情？

我。。。不明白。。。

也不了解。。。

甚至不知道。。。

我现在活在一个很多问号的世界。。。

真希望能尽快找到出路。。。

真希望前方是死路，转角是希望。。。

真希望前方的路还充满光芒，让我明白‘还有明天’这四个字。。。

same is birthday post...

haha...^^ jz nw nt write finiz coz write til half suddenly gt smt do...

continue...

my rummate nw oway say pain...
tat player 11 make our team lose a rebounder...
tis make me lose a lot of attack chance...

y ppl birthday wil b hapi bt 2 me....
y i hv no tat feel...
r me expect too high?
bt hw 2 b hapi.. lose de match, gt clas til 12pm den go bec sleep coz too tired til 5pm...

m i play play? y i go wer oso gt ppl say me like tis?
haha^^.. nvm la.. let it b...
mayb tis is my characteristic...

my birthday is over d...
next is muk lim birthday...
mayb i wil plan 2 gv him a surprise...
let him cry...
haha^^...
mine d over so nvm d...
help fren pulok... jia you... target target...

birthday...

4/8/2009...
tis is my birthday..
bt ntg special...
tis is de 1st time i birthday here...
jz at here 3 week...
so no nid expect it wil hv a better celebration la...

so boring..
so cham..
mayb tis is de worst bday lo...
2 me...
when i at matrik i bday at least so many ppl celebrate 4 me...
at house stil gt my family..
bt here... othough meng n lim gt help 2 celebrate bt stil cant...
bt soli ya... jz gt them acc me...
stil thx them la...
if no them i lagi teruk...

huh.. 2day i in match play so gd...
bt stil lose de game...
coz my rummate b ppl make injured...
jz start 5 sec den go out nih...
i so du lan tat player 11...
if nt i tink v can win de... huh==

someting new

NEW!!

new ting... new environment...

new competiton... new study course...

new life... new shopping place...

bt 2day i wan talk in smt new is fren...

new fren...

at here i meet a lot of fren...

gt teammate... which is volley team n basket team...

gt same residential area fren... which is from KRP..

gt diff residential area fren... which is KTF, KTHO, KTDI, K9, K10

den is gt coursemate...

actually 2day i jz wan talk bout coursemate...

my coursemate gt 31 chinese...

tis 3o chinese in my 1st sight i tink it wil hard 2 me 2 kno each other...

coz i tink them wil b veli cool o wil nt peduli us...

bt it diff...

tey r frenly...

nw i wif boy which better wan is tze meng n muk lim...

tey r i exposed de most...

den is kui jan, kim n wei lun...

else i nt tat kno lui... bt stil gt alot of time 2 let me 2 kno them...

tze meng= he is a sportman... same 2 me.. v o like outdoor activities... he is sukma player 4 volleybol... he is gd... wif him o de time is laughing time... he gt many joke.. gt many surprise he wil do 2 u... so gal who wan him wil nt easily get bored... so who wan can tel me.. i wil try 2 help them...
muk lim= he oso sportman.. bt nt same wif i n meng... he nt oway go outdoor activities... he oso a gd ppl... he like 2 help ppl... bt he easily 4gt ppl name... tis is de disadvantages of him... he is a caring ppl... he wil help a ppl wer else he is tired o doing smt... he like 2 exposed 2 new environment... so gal who wan him wil feel so xin fu... who wan him oso can tel me...hehe^^
kui jan= boy chinese leader... gt gf d... he wil nt run out de track de...
kim= muk lim rummate....
wei lun= veli in de boy... sumtime wil silent.. bt when wif his fren he look diff...

gal...>> shuang, jane, li wen... tey r most better la... v d yam cha so many time...
>> hui hui, jia chyi, joyce, xiao har, yen tian, huey zhi, shuk yan, kim yee... tey r stil ok...
>> jia hui, xiao hong n their group member..i nt yet expose more bt i wil go knowing them..

shuang= she is a gal tat msg me de most.. sumtime she wil care bout me... erm... she n me gt 1 characteristic is nite cant sleep.. 2 me she is a ok ppl... hope her wil oway b hapi... ^^
jane= she is shuang rummate... 2 me she is a blur blur gal.. u talk wat she duno... she cant catch wat v talk... mayb she is jaring den v r broadband... she wil care bout me oso.. cal me drink more water... scare h1n1... haha..^^
li wen= she is a gal which is veli white... she oso a active gal... if u talk wif her den wil talk non-stop.. bt it gd... coz like tat ter wil nt hv a silent meeting...
hui hui= 'gang guan nv lang' in chinese...
jia chyi= helmet gal..
joyce= very silent gal...
xiao har= my group assignment member... oso talkative... bt she gd...
yen tian= my group member in akrab camp.. can play wif her much.. she so thin... she de thinnest in our course...
huey zhi= chinese gal leader
jia hui= housewife... she look is like a housewife...

tis is o nw i kno... my target is kno o de coursemate...
nt jz kno bt is bcum totally fren...
at uni v mz enjoy n tis is de social life ma...
when v at outside... wif no family...
jz leave fren can help u...
so meet more u wil nt hv disadvantage bt jz gt it benefit...
so jia you 2 hit de target...^^

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stil a lot of work 2 do...
nw doing homework...
wow...
lecturer like duno v gt other subject de...
huh...

y life oway like tat...
who u like u reali cant 2gather....
who u dun like u oway gt de chance..
i reali dun wan hurt u..
bt u tel me hw 2 do..
jz wil nt hurting u...
u n me jz knowing each other 3 week....
so a relationship so faz happen is impossible...
n in my heart stil hv other ppl...
soli i cant make it...
i duno hw 2 say so i tink wil stay away from u 1st...
hope u kno it...
n i oso cant hv a gd relationship wif de one i love...
so i kno wat ur feel...
nw de me jz can say soli....
soli 2 u...
i nt tat gd so no nid wait me ya...

2ml gt match... duno lose o win...
tey r de best in utm...
bt i wil take tis challenge...
coz i dun wan my team let ppl say nt tat gd...
no matter lose o win... v oso wil play our best...
jia you ya my team...
let ppl c our power...
let ppl c wat v been training b4...

mayb 2day i wil nt sleep d...
assignment a lot...
jz express a bit so tat i nt tat sleepy...
dun wan drink nescafe...
hehe...

)=

tears...
drop..
drop..
n drop....

lose ==

wow... 2day frenly match v lose...
nw jz i kno wat r tey playing...
n jz kno wer de mistake v hv...
n my weakness... stamina lose a lot...
after kakom i didnt run til nw...
stamina reali drop...
bt i hv 2 improve...
tis frenly match i saw 2 kelantanese which is my fren..
tey r from kubang kerian 1..
wow... tey improve a lot...
nvm i wil jia you..
luckily 2day i nt fainted....
if fainted i sure veli paise...
nw veli tired...
stil hv homework do...
2ml lagi teruk...
8am gt clas til 1pm... den go out site 2 do project...
den training... nite stil gt clas....
wow...
wat a busy man...
like tis sure lagi sick...
hope it wil nt happen...

haha...

de 1st time i get fainted...
in utm i faINTED 2 TIME...
wow... incredible...
de 1st time is in rum...
wif no ppl inside... n my clas start at 10am...
i wake up at 8am...
bt i faint til 10.02am...
on de floor...
walau e...
luckily can wake up n go 2 clas late...
2nd time is when training...
bt jz faint 4 5min la...
when i carry de ball...
suddenly 脚软 n fall dwn...
so paise...
2ml gt frenly match pulok...
duno can stand 4 o nt...

thx ya ming stil gv me sum support...
thx a lot... same 2 u... jia you ar...
heard u ter nw very tough...
hw bout ur swimming...
u scare water de wo...
bt hv 2 try ur best ya...
^^

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huh... =='

nw de me is reali fan...
fan fan fan...

get sick...
bt stil hv 2 training...
if nt ltr cant in sukam den cant stay in college d...
tis college is de most near 2 faculty...
so it is de gd la so far i at here...

so many day cant on d...
so 2day tis post wil say out o de ting i met tis few day...

i nw at utm... study in faculty alam bina... course is quantity survey....
wat u o kno bout quantity survey?
u o sure say is count tis ting count tat ting...
o use maths rite...
bt it totally wrong...
at here sketch more than maths...
tis make me confuse a lot...
den a lot of assignment...
can say de most assignment in so many course...
at here de maximum credit hour is 18 hour...
n our course o is 18 hours...
o maximum...
cant relax...

den i oso participate a lot of ting...
gt polis... my rummate say can help a lot n gt elaun..
haha.. tis is de main purpose kua...

den basketball n volleyball team again...
university team...
i in volleyball coz my rummate n he acc in basket...
so nw i totally busy...

den waiting 4 interview in JKM...
jawatan kuasa mahasiswa...
wow...
bt a lot of ting 2 do...

i nw hv 2 start 2 go many site 2 do survey...
start project n assignment...
huh.. hope my teammate nt a spoon feeding ppl...
hope tey can help me do our ting...

actually busy o nt is c tat person de lo...
i cant blame myself tat i was tat person make me so busy...
so nt simply tink...
everyting go hapily i d ok...
bt wif tis kind of life...
sumtime u wil tired den get sick...
like me nw....
==

i at here gt 2 best fren...
tey cal tze meng n muk lim...
tey can support a lot 2 me...
help me a lot...
no matter u r dwn o wat....
tey wil totally help u...
example: my cincin lost 4 time d...
bt i found it 4 time...
1st time is when train basketball i no take dwn...
den suddenly it dissappear...
i searching 4 whole court....
a big court wif a small cincin...
bt at laz i found it...
2nd time i drop at roadside...
tis is when i hv 2 go a camp organize by faculty...
when lost i quickly go bec find..
bt cant find in rum...
time nt enough... bus wan dpart d...
wif a sad face... dissapointed... i walk 2ward de bus...
at tat time i tink a lot...
is tat 缘分已尽...
mean i hv 2 uninstal tis person...
bt unbelievable...
at de path road i walk n i step on it....
i found it again...
i reali hapi... duno hw 2 express de hapiness...
3rd time is when i hv activity in camp which is treasure hunt...
tat cincin drop at beach....
beach wor...
hw big is it...
bt muk lim n i try searching...
at tat time i realise it drop at specific area n v search at ter...
duno say lucky o i wif tis cincin 缘分未尽...
i found it again...
reali hv 2 thx muk lim...
i n him searching 4 1 hour ++....
n he oso hapi when help me found it...
MUK LIM THX A LOT....
4th time is i go play badminton n basketball in 1 evening...
i run here n ter...
n tat cincin i keep in my bag....
in tat bag oso gt my fren ting...
mayb is tey o me drop it kua...
tis i nt sure...
coz v oway take water inside...
i drop it again...
bt tze meng n muk lim cal me dun woli...
wif 3 ppl searching along de road btween basket court n badminton court...
at laz v found it again...
tis time is de longest time...
v search from 7.30pm like tat til 10.12pm...
i rmb is 10.12pm coz at tat time v jz hv dinner coz bout tis cincin...

wif tis 4 time experience....
i reali dun wan it drop it again..
coz when lost it...
i reali cant pay attention anymore 2 other ting...
i wan buy a ting tat can make put on my neck...
bt i stil cant found a pretty wan...
it important 2 me la...
tis few day training i dun bring it go...
i put in my rum bt i reali cant play well in training...
shoot nt in...
oway fault...
mayb tis is i 心理作用...
bt i reali make it as my lucky chain n important 2 me...

at here senior o gd gd 2 me n my fren...
mayb is coz v r active kua...
tey bring here n ter...
n tel us many tip...
4 study...
i reali thx a lot 2 them...
hope tey oway b hapi...
tze meng n muk lim oso ya...
mz b hapi...

tis few day i sick...
bt stil go training...
stil do a lot of ting....
nw is serious d...
cough seriously...
fever seriously...
huh...
nw my college gt ppl say gt 3 ppl get h1n1...
tis make me so scare...
2ml hv 2 go c doc d....
hope i can recover soon...
if nt 26july hw i hv competition le...
i wil try my best 2 make it recover...
jz hope nt tat kind of disease la...
jia you...

jz kno.... (hope)

i jz kno many ting...
i jz kno everyting bout my uni..
bout my faculty...
bout my previous...
i jz kno her mum gt sick b4...
when i kno i reali sad...
2 me... i kno she reali love her mum...
her mum is a gd ppl..
y can get tis kind of ting...
y? y? y?
pls...
pls... god pls bless her mum...
i jz hope her mum reali wil recover...
i duno pray can help o nt bt nw i reali pray 4 it...
i kno nw she wil b veli sad...
bt i can do ntg...
cant share...
hope it can pass...
hope....

DUno

duno... duno...
i duno everyting...
y i should kno...?
apologise i d apologise...
i d say is misunderstanding ma...
y i so care bout her feeling...?
i duno..
when i kno she nt hapi o wat...
i reali like nei jiu de...
heart nt feel well...
nw...
my utm letter nt cum out yet...
wan do wat oso duno..
fan fan fan fan...

huh..

wan go uni oso a lot of ting 2 do..
dun kno hw..
confusing n tension...
fan fan fan fan....
every1 can help me?
huh..
duno hw apply..
duno wat 2 do...
no 1 can talk wif...
tis hurt...
everyting in heart cant say out...
huh...

besT Fren

i n her wil go along wif use best fren...
best fren o fren... i duno...
bt i wil share my ting 2 her...
i wil make sure i can help my family in their difficulty...
no tink...
n dun tink d...
nw my ting r a lot...
anyting i oso hv 2 do...
tension n stress...
bt i wil do it well...
next time meet her jz tink wanna try o nt lo...
haha... ^^

NothINg

boring...
bored.. bored... bored...
talk from yesterday...
yesterday gt a ppl say 2 me...
can say is an wei me lo...
huh...
i oso kena ppl an wei...
haha..
she say next time find a ppl love me more than i love de ppl...
everyone oso wan like tis...
bt to me i dun tink so...
coz y can find a ppl love me same wif i love tat ppl?
if de ppl love me more than i move her...
i tink i wil b de 1 who can break 1st lo...
if like tat wil b more ppl feel dwn lo...
huh... :(
i tink mayb is me love her more than she love me kua...
den she kno i stil tink bout her...
actually nw i cant b alone...
if nt wil simply tink....
she tel me worth meh i stil tink bout her?
bt to me...
tis is feel...
i cant do anyting...
it cum 2 me automaticly....
mayb i stil no put dwn o kua...
mz jia you o...
den cum to 2day pulok...
my body tat get snake cum serious d...
duno y it start 2 cum again..
nw de me cant predict wat wil happen 2ml...
mayb wil gd...
mayb nt...
huh..
if like tat pass away i oso duno hw 2 do..
life oso nt totally xiang shou....
mz keep positive ar chyuan...
jia you...
everyone hv it hapi ting...
bt y tis few month i oway unhapi?
y? y? y?
nw no nid kno la...
kno oso cant help anyting...
chyuan...
u mz gambateh...
i oway believe after rain wil gt beautiful rainbow de...
i can pass it de....
jia you...

StUpId

i m so stupid..
i duno y...
mayb tis is fate kua...
haha...
2 day b4 yesterday...
i so stupid go ajok her go out...
i d kno de ans...
bt i stil go ajok...
haha...
at last failure cum 2 me...
actually i jz wan gv her bec her phone...
i..
huh...
duno hw 2 say...
mayb i should change sum plan...
cal ppl like fren gv her bec?
o when gathering gv?
bt when gathering wil paise le...
huh...
sucks... brain stuck d....
like me oway unlucky...
like 2day..
i go eat mangis...
i like fruit bt i duno mangis can harm my body...
coz i gt snake at my body...
so i cant eat smt tat gt toksik...
so nw feel pain lo..
huh...
1 month d....
oso cant recover...
from i break til nw...
tis snake oso along...
hw jz can recover?
i duno...
doctor go c twice d....
tey say me tension...mz release...mz relax..
bt i jz gt problem at relationship ting...
mayb i nt totally 4get lui kua...
bt mz gv me time ma...
go c chinese wan...
tey say i simply eat...
huh..
i d everyday eat vege plus rice onli..
so kelian...
bt tey say me like tat...
i miss chicken la..
huh...
i hope o unlucky ting go away faster...
hope lucky cum bec...
huh... :(

BaD DaY

a bad day...
2 bad day...
3 bad day...
bad day... bad day... bad day....
recently i cant b hapi...
i make my self hapi, tink bout hapi...
bt o fail...
when gt ppl i can b usual...
can smile...
bt when alone...
huh...
life is like tat...
mayb i should pass smt like tat de gua...
yesterday gt gathering...
bt i go... tey o ask me relationship ting...
bt i oso duno hw 2 ans...
at ter nt c her....
mayb she is avoiding me kua...
nw i d try put dwn o de ting le...
phone wil gv her bec...
o she gv me de ting i d keep d...
yesterday soon say 2 me...
she dun like ppl fan her de...
bt i d fan her so long...
so she dun wan accept me...
nw i kno de reason d...
huhu...
say wan 4gt oso hard...
sumtime drive alone oso simply tink...
gt 2 time wan accident d...
luckily ntg happen.. so dangerous...
nw i n her losing contact d...
signal o gone...
n i kno mayb i dissapoint her a lot so i jz get smt like tis...
nvm la...
hope it can pass..
mayb next time dun wan gt date d la...
1 ppl mayb wil nt get hurt anymore...
jia you...
i kno chyuan can do it de...
gambateh...

day 15

15 day can say much oso can say jz a few...
it jz 2 week n a day...
bt to me...
its much...
i live in suffer tis 15 day...
nobody can share wif... nt like previous...
i...
tis few day she study much... sleep onli 2 hour...
like tis she sure veli weak...
like tis she sure veli stress...
like tis she sure veli helpless...
bt tis few day i oway msg her...
disturb her...
othough i jz wan 2 b recover...
bt wat i do is wrong...
i should gv her time 2 study...
gv her time 2 release her tension...
i kno tis time she sure dun wan me help her...
n her dun wan my help...
i wan do o de ting 2 her...
i can b sacrifice...
i wan take a gd result 2 her...
bt i cant do it...
i study study study o de time oso cant use...
mayb i nt gd in tis subject...
i wan talk 2 her...
bt cant....
hope she can do her exam well...
i wan keep o de memory bt i cant...
nw i keep a ting a ting into de box...
2day i keep de letter...
de valentine letter...
so sweet so nice...
haha...
bt i cant hv it d...
duno 2ml wat wil i keep...
2day keep 1 ting i d hv my tears...
it hurt...
bt day i oso hv 2 pass..
jia you ar darling...
u sure can pass well in ur exam de...
jia you.... o de best...
tis is my wishes...

no title

long time no on d..
coz com spoil...
huh...
a veli dissapoint n sad ting happen...
o de ting nw jz can b de sweet memory....
actually i stil gt feel on her...
bt...
rmb gt sum1 at side is veli sweet de ting....
rmb when i gt ting sure gt ppl wil share wif me...
rmb when v go trip is veli hapi de...
rmb when sum1 sad o stress sure gt ppl acc...
rmb....
o de ting cum so faz n go s faz...
nw jz can rmb...
ntg 2 do...
hope i can go bec 2 previous...
2 earn bec wat i hv...
2 more concern bout sum1....
nw i sick...
get snake...
n her face exam...
i reali wan stand at her side support her like when i face exam....
bt hw 2 do...
i duno hw...
nw i jz can pray 4 her 2 get a better result...
rmb lazc time when she wan facing exam v oso facing trouble d....
luckily at tat time v recover it bec....
bt tis time it cum real...
erm...
o de best 4 her...
jia you n gambateh...
dun sleep too late 2day.... coz 2ml exam ar....
i doing ntg at home....
jz hope she can b hapi, no stress, get gd result....
hope i can recover faster....
nw o de ting i cant do....
lay dwn oso a problem 2 me....
hope my ting is after rain d...
coz after rain a beautiful rainbow wil cum out...

harD Day become pasT Tense

wow...
wat a relief...
de worst de hard d pass...
at tis 4 day test i jz can say stress n tension...
i jz sleep 10hours 4 tis 4 day..
hope my hard work worth la...
bt anyway...
if nt her encouragement...
mayb i d nt going 2 study d...
thx ya darling..
oway support me...
yeah...

six

wat is six?
six can b written as 6 o oso VI...
in hokkien..
de pronouns of six can b say as luck...
wow...
so gd noh...
hehe...
bt i wan 2 tel is 2day six is important 2 me...
yeah...
hurray...
i n her 2gather 6 month d...
in tis few month...
i kno her important...
i kno her good...
i kno her tempered..
i kno her life...
i kno her style..
haha...
can b say i kno her everyting...
she is gd...
n thx 2 her...
6 month edi...
she oso prefer 2 at my side..
supporting me...
she is de 1 i love so much...
hope v can b long lasting...

HAPPY HALF YEAR ANNIVERSARY...
BE FOREVER YA...
LOVE LING MUCH...^^

^^

^^
thx a lot..
gt ppl sayang is nt same wan...
feel so warm so comfortable...
yeah..
2day she hv english test...
gambateh o...
she can do it de..
i believe her...
i trust her...
although she nt touch tis kind of ting so long d...
bt i stil kno she can go it de...
jia you...
i oway supporting u....
try ur best ya...

No TiTle

she no sleep yesterday...
bt i fall asleep..
i say i wan acc her den i cant tahan...
when i wan sleep..
i cal her..
coz i miss her...
her voice..
her everyting...
den i tell her 2 sleep nt too late...
veli surprising is...
is i nw i jz kno she nt yet sleep...
huh...
y like tat..?
r she can stand 4 de whole day?
i duno...
in the morning i msg her den i dun receive any reply....
i tink she is on de bed lui...
i tink coz she sleep late so wake up late...
bt...
she no hear my advice...
i so woli bout her nw...

************************************************************************************
hv 2 start a new day...
hv 2 start study wif my timetable d...
gambateh n go go go..

ImPOrtanT

an important oway mz do by me everyday...
tis nt a doubt...
tis is 2 miss sumone tat important 2 me..
she...
same wif me oway tink bout our memories...
everytime approach 2 sumting tat v approach 2gather b4...
i sure wil refresh bec...

yesterday i go astaka..
i c a gal standing at wer u stand...
i tink is u...

yesterday i sit at the bec of library study...
i tink u sit bside me...

tis sat i wil outing 2 go cut my hair...
r u stil go out wif me?

tis kind of tinking if ppl kno is like i m stupid...
bt due 2 me...
it feel sweet...

vitagen...
outing...
lunch...
library...
bt...
trip...
cny...

o of tis is mt sweetest memories...
i love her...
i wil try 2 gv her a lot of hapiness...
tis is wat i swear...
miss her so much...

ExaM

Exam... EXaM...
cum nearer n nearer...
tension n stress no stop standing on my shoulder...
sumtime feel wan fall dwn...
bt wat 2 do..
o tis kind of ting mz face by o student...
n i m de 1 oso acting as student at tis moment...
let me take tis as the biggest challenge 4 me at tis time...
i wil try my best..
wil nt b look dwn again from others...
seriously...
tis time i d make a timetable start from 2ml...
everyday at least mz study 2 chapter...

"tis is a mz..." i talk 2 myself...

let do it...
n o de pupils in matriculation...
especially my fren...
gambateh...
v can do it de...
jia you n go go go...

tIreD

yesterday til 4am jz sleep...
study study oso cant in...
so fed up...
so frust...
bt nvm...
i stil rmb her say wat 2 me...
dun aim so high 1st...
one step one step 2 approach success...
i kno my standard...
i should spend more time than other ppl...
she ar she ar...
oway i gt problem i sure wil tink bout her...
c her photo...
den automatically i wil smile n b energetic again...
ter is oway an ans 2 me 2 solve my problem..
othough like tat i stil feel tired...
hehe..
coz sleep too late...
2day nearly miss de 1st clas..
hehe...
mujur SEMPAT...
2day duno her gt face wat problem o nt?
she send a msg tat like she face any problem...
i so woli...
i wan 2 b de one tat can help her when she gt problem...
hope god bless her...
ntg happen on her...
if gt anyting she wil tel me de...
miss her much.... :) ^^

bAd MoOd

huh...
duno y 2day i feel so bad...
so unlucky...
2day de akaun giant teacher say me pulok...
n i so unlucky 2day i nt yet finiz de past year...
o can say i forgot to do 1 chapter...
coz i tink 2day wil hv bincang onli 1 chapter bt its 2 chapter 2day...
den i jz write de ans dwn so tat when i do i can check lo...
unlucky mean unlucky...
he ask me whether i gt do o nt...
i wan cheat him bt i scare ltr he cal me take 2 him n c...
so i jz say i nt done yet...
den he shoot me...
he shoot o chinese r best compare 2 other...
tis is coz chinese more hardworking..
bt oso gt a few tat is nt....
coz tey r malas...
wow..
tis probably is shoot me...
i wan prefer he nt say me oso cant coz he say wif looking on me...
o can say is stare on me...
den he say my hair pulok...
i kno my hair is long...
bt he say like tat...
he say he d scold bout my hair so many time n i nt cut it lui...
previously say me like gengster...
nw say me malas..
o he say...
wat 2 do...
i jz can b sit ter n control my feeling lo...
nvm...
den gt student ask me y u get scold u oso no hv feeling de...
tis was hurt...
r me hv 2 show my anger...
if i show den wat impact i wil hv?
den tey say i nt improve...
after say mz improve ma...
huh...
tey wan me angry o wat?
mujur gt my classmate n a few kuliahmate help me say...
coz tey o kno i nw start study d...
n tey cal me nt to concern bout tat...
nt 2 concern bout tat stupid giant...
kk...
i do 4 my right...
i wil nt care other tink bout me hw...
i jz serve 4 my right...
2day i unlucky...
nt mean everyday i wil b like tat kua...
hope so....
huh...

MisS

nw i jz finiz study 1 chapter...
ekonomi ekonomi...
so frust study tis kind of ting...
bt i hv 2 take it...
so nw i relax a while...
ltr continue o go 4 sleep..?
i stil nt decide yet...
hehehe....
jz feel miss u so much...
tink bout u bao bei...
sleep d?
hope u sleep d coz u 2ml hv fitness test...
mz eat 1st jz go ya...
dun let ur stomach kosong n full when wan do exercise...
make it at normal...
2 bread i tink can d...
2ml jia you o...
blieve urslf can do it...
try ur best...
bi oway supporting u...
bi is ling de la la dui..
hehe...
jia you jia you...
ling r de best...
jia you jia you...
ling cant b defeat...
hohoho....
rmb 2 trust urself...
dun make u nt confident...
everyting u oso can do it de...
hurray...
miss u so much n love u so much...
muaks muakss muaksss....

Comment To You

Actually i no sleep yet..
n i d c ur blog at 3am..
i wan write it bec 2 u bt de line is worst...
u nudge me at msn i oso at 3pm jz c...
yesterday v no play game coz everyone hv their ting 2 do...
so i so late jz c..
i oso tink bout u so jz go 2 c ur blog...
y u cant sleep u nt try 2 find me?
y u wan talk u dun wan call me?
y u so late u dun wan sleep yet?
i kno de ans..
u sure dun wan disturb me de, rite?
n u cant sleep coz u gt a lot of ting to do...
u sure veli stress...
n u oso tink of me...
i oso tink of u..
i hope i can at ur side when u nid me...
i love u...
bao bei...
jia you...:)

YoUr FinAl DeciSion=mY FiNal deCIsiOn

LoVe YoU...
actually i dun wan left u de...
if i left u i duno hw can me survive...
bt 4 de sake of u i wil do it...
bt mujur u say v no nid...
wat a relief...
i so nervous when u wan ans me...
til i heard ur ans i straightly bcum hapi...
hehe...
hurray..
i love you...
bao bei...
can v keep it longer?
u ask can me tahan?
i ans u tat i sure can tahan...
i love u so much n i wil nt let u go d..
i promise...
can?

A Shock!!!

i nt tink her wil c my blog so faz...
unexpectation...
hehe...
everytime i say i gt write jz she wil c de...
nw she c it so faz...
unbelievable...
when i c she cal me...
i was nervous...
othough i gt wan decide a way 2 settle de problem...
bt i stil scare 2 face tat kind of situation...
i dun wan v so faz pisah...
when i take it...
a shock cum...
she say she c my blog d...
n she cry...
wat a shock 2 me....
coz i d promise i wil nt let her cry ma...
bt after talk wif her i feel so hapi..
i jz kno she care bout me so much...
so much so much..
can extend 2 infinity....
v talk n talk...
i feel hapi n sweet tat time...
tis make me lagi duno hw 2 handle de situation...
i cant lie myself...
i love her so much...
tis is de truth...
so when i wan face it i sure wil feel scare de...
bt i kno tis kind of situation wil b solve de...
hope nt bad ting happen bt is vice versa...
tat is gd...
love her much...
muakssssssss......^^

yesterday

life in here so boring...
tiring...
i jz sleep 4 2hours...
haha..
cant blame it oso...
tis day i oso make her angry...
bt i oso get hurt by her word...
she say her mum say wan study n maintain a relationship is hard 2 do...
bt i tink if when study oso cant when work oso cant la...
den she say dun hv financial oso cant maintain it...
i kno tis true..
it hurt more...
bt wat she say is o rite...
wat i tink is oway nt gd wan...
simply tink wan...
tis is my weakness...
i wil try my best 2 fix it bec...
wif her i can sacrifice a lot...
i wil try my best 2 make her hapi rather den me...
seem v losing contact 4 so long...
i d feel nei jiu...
den 2 pay bec wat i do wrong,
i acc her de whole nite..
i study study til morning 5.30am++
den i jz go 4 nap so tat when i go clas i stil gt energy 2 pay attention...
bt tis day reali tiring...
actully i gt clas til 3pm onli...
bt teacher hv extra class till 4pm...
nvm more 1 hours onli...
bt aftertat i hv 2 go tuition at cubicle...
tis make me more tired...
actually i tink i wan hv a nap 1st when go bec...
bt it seem nt so much time 4 me....
coz i hv 2 prepare my business kuiz...
i study when bec 2 rum bt i feel sleepy more then study..
so when i in kuiz i oso blur othough i do finiz de question...
n i dun tink i can get a gd result tis time again...
i wan sleep early tis day...
bt assignment hv 2 pass up 2ml...
so i do finiz jz sleep...
tat tome is 3pm i tink...
huh...
1 most ting is i injured my leg...
i duno y..
mayb is de match btween malay n chinese kua..
so i walk jz can 1 step 1 step...
so pain... huhu...

day before yesterday

on wednesday..
tis day full of sadness n angry...
tis day i make a greter mistake in my life..
i make my important ppl angry...
she say she mayb cant talk wif me 2day coz she nid 2 go her mum office,
bt at tat time i tink i nid a talk wif her,
at last i tink i rather dun let her so stress, busy n rush 4 de sake of me...
den a misunderstand occur...
she write in blog like she is fairly dissappoint of me..
1stly she wan 2 b de gal oway supporting me...
bt in tat blog she say she tired...
i feel so scare...
i dun wan 2 go without her...
she is de most important 2 me...
den i go play badminton...
bt i cant b concentrate...
i d c her blog 1st jz i go 2 play...
at tat time i play is de worst i tink...
nvm...
jz play ma...
n i jz go ying chou akaun 1...
at 6pm like tat...
i change 2 play basketball...
wif de worst playing style...
v chinese lose de match wif malay...
tis nt a criticsm match..
jz a friendly match..
bt duno y malay take it so serious...
mayb 2 previous match tey no win kua...
at tat time tey find o gd malay basketball player cum...
stil gt subtitution...
bt our chinese jz a few...
i n my partner actually no cum de...
bt i d at ter court n c...
so tey cal me go in play...
jz a friendly match...
bt v chinese b say by a malay v r noob...
v nt strong at o..
tis make me angry...
other malay stil friendly 2 us n gt their sportmenship...
bt tat particular guy...
i duno hw 2 say him...
if him a gd player y he cant represent college 2 play in kakom...
nvm..
let it go...
next time tey cant win so easy coz v wil well prepare 2 compete wif them...
a gd player...
huhu...

how?

2day i n her gt talk...
i kno she love me much...
n i love her veli veli much...
nw v at critical situation...
v oso duno hw 2 do...
nw v o oso busy...
assignment...
exam...
study...
n many other ting lui...
she say mayb v jz prefer 2 pisah 4 a while...
coz when she busy she scare she nt acc me den v surely gt problem de....
n i going 2 hv final exam d...
she...
exam, muet test n assignment o cum 2gather...
make her more tension...
c her suffer like tis...
i feel veli pain...
if i let her go alone 4 a while wil b a better way o nt?
nw i jz scare if v pisah a while...
i scare wil b 4ever pisah...
i jz woli bout tis...
bt if v pisah...
i tink she is better coz she hv less ting 2 woli n tink about...
she wil nt woli our relationship...
wil nt rush everyting 4 me...
wil nt tink 4 sacrifice herself 4 de sake of me...
tis make me confuse...
wan o dun wan?
i love her...
so wat 2 do is de best way?
tink tink tink...
c de ring on my hand...
wan take it out a while o nt?
o hv 2 keep it 4 forever..?
c de watch de phone...
hv 2 keep it in a place i cant c o nt?
i scare v pisah 4 a while i wil miss her more n more...
her pic..
i tink i oso should nt c it d...
if ltr v gonna pisah 1st n c...
i tink tis is o de best way nt let me suffer kua...
mayb 2day i wil c de pic 4 last time...
den let it bcum our memories...
memories...
tis is de sweetest memories 4 me...
i nvr so hapi b4...
nvr feel so sweet...
nvr feel comfortable when wif everyone..
she is de 1st n de last ppl can make me feel like tis kua...
wat she done...
so perfect...
at previous, i sure wil b gd 2 o gal around me...
after i wif her 2gather...
i jz wil tink bout her onli...
other gal i d nt so much concern...
hw 2 say ar?
nt no gd wif other gal bt i wil b more gd 2 her...
n i wil nt betray her...
yesterday akaun nite...
i n meng khai jz stand ter n talk onli...
so many ppl cum 2 wan our photograph...
malay...
chinese...
i jz feel comfortable when photo wif kelantanese, khai n my kuliahmate...
others?
i duno wat de feel is on me....
i jz oway tink like i m soli 2 her...
wif other gal photograph i sure cant so hapi de...
nt same when i photo wif her..
at o de trip i go along wif her i feel tat i veli hapi...
i feel o our sacrifice is worth de...
hehe...
refresh hw i start chasing her is so funny...
haha...
tat is in form 6...
when i kno she wif her previous bf nt 2gather d...
i feel is de time 2 chasing her d coz i d start like her from form 5...
n i b rejected so many time...
she say she dun like me...
bt i stil keep chasing her...
i duno y...
mayb i love her too much kua...
den when i kno she wil go in matrik...
i d pray i oso can go along wif her...
haha...
wif god bless me...
i get it oso..
den i oway 2gather wif her...
in library, eat lunch, buy vitagen 4 her n 1 most important is...
is she stand at her rum outside 2 c me trainig basketball...
i feel so warm tat time...
den bad ting cum...
she get de penguruan course...
i kno tis is her dream so i nt say wan she stay at matrik...
i let her go 4 her future...
othough i dun wan like tis...
i cant b selfish ma..
when she wan go out d... she hug me...
i feel so nervous tat time...
haha...
4get smt... b4 tis v oso gt go outing 2 kuantan...
jz v 2 ppl onli...
tat oso a sweet memories 2 me...
coz tat is de 1st time i hold her hand...
den she go out matrik n left a letter 2 me...
tis make me feel so sad...
den i oso keep chasing her...
wif msg n cal...
haha...
so stupid ar me...
bt i tink tis is worth...
at last at 1st of october v 2gather d...
den v go date...
she cum trip wif me 4 de 1st...
v go tc, ecm, bmm..
so hapi...
den second is v go kl...
v stay at soon aunt house...
v go many place n she noh buy a lot of ting...
walau e...
bt i stil hapi...
den is chinese new year...
v bec hometown...
v spend a lot of time 2 go out 2gather...
n tat is de 1st time she willing 2 play bol wif me...
haha...
den is a trip again...
tis is de most memorble coz v photo a lot...
v go sp, cp, jm...
den v go eat a lot of ting...
haha...
o of tis is sweet memories 2 me...
i wil nt 4get...
i wil keep it in my brain 4ever...
n i so soli oway make her angry...
mayb tis is de last post i wil write bout her if v ltr wil pisah...
she wil oway in my heart...
no one can replace her...
i love her...
tis is a fact...
cant change d...
ltr c hw is going on den i wil choose de better way 2 settle tis problem...
if i c pisah is better, i wil pisah 4 de sake of her gd...
if i c pisah nt a gd way sure i wil nt pisah...
c de situation la...
i love her..
hope she wil b hapi 4ever...
hope o her dream wil cum true...
hope her future wil b veli bright...
tis 3 hope is my dream n i tink it wil b realise...
o de best 2 her...
gambateh....

being scare...

ling...
i hv no mean de...
actually i tink u wil cal me when u finiz...
so at tat time i tink if i no go play bol mayb v can talk...
bt tink furtherly...
if u kno i waiting 4 u...
u sure wil rush 4 it de..
i dun wan u so tension...
dun wan u so rush...
i wan u b relax...
nw u on holiday..
muz relax more..
i dun wan b selfish..
i d c ur post...
wat u do everyting is 4 me de...
i d feel touch when c ur post...
so i oso mz tink bout ur feeling 1st...
i love u...
so i dun wan u so xin ku...
i wan u 2 b de most xin fu wan...
tis wat i dream...
wat i tink...
pls dun b angry...
wif u...
i wil nt b tired...
if u misunderstand me...
i wil make u understand de...
so tis is wat i tink jz nw...
hope u c it u wil kno wat i tink d...
hope u wil c tis blog...
i duno hw 2 contact u d...
jz praying nw u wil c my blog...
love u...
ling...

谢谢

名，谢谢你。。。
如果没有你我真的不知什么是爱。。。
不知道怎样才会开心。。。
现在就只剩下你一个人而已会听我讲心事，
会与我分享。。。
没了你，我真的不知要怎么办。。。
谢谢你的一切。。。

名，谢谢你。。。
这一次真的让我有意外收获。。。
你的付出。。。
你的陪伴。。。
你的所有。。。
最重要的是你为我准备的一切，
我真的没有想到你会为我做这么多东西。。。
礼物也很特别。。。
你浪费了很多时间。。。
我真的很开心。。。
从来没有认为我这样做的。。。
你是第一个， 也是做后一个。。。
你的陪伴让我心里平衡很多。。。
谢谢你。。。

名，谢谢你。。。
谢谢你没有生气我的愚蠢。。。
没有生气我的疏忽。。。
没有生气我做了害羞的事情。。。
也没有嫌弃我的背景。。。
还那么的帮我。。。
我真的很愧疚。。。
但又很开心可以有你在我的身边。。。
觉得很甜。。。
谢谢你对我的谅解。。。

名，谢谢你。。。
我爱你。。。
谢谢你因为让我爱你。。。
让我成为你的永远。。。
我爱你是不会改变的。。。
永永远远就有你一个人。。。
希望你别嫌弃我哦。。。
总而言之，谢谢你坐进我的人生，让我感觉到这世界还有温暖的。。。
这一次的见面虽然有很多酸，甜，苦，辣。。。
但我还是很开心，因为有你的陪伴，我已心满意足了。。。
我爱你。。。
也谢谢你。。。

huh...

in ur opinion...
in him eyes...
o is my fault...
u o tink who m i....
u say i spend more money.... yup i kno is my fault...
bt tat nt in kl i spend finiz...
i take de money at november n finz at 1st of feb...
i kno tis is my fault...
i kno u o veli suffer....
hv 2 post money 2 me is de most suffering thing i kno...
i cant do anyting nw...
bt in future i wil gv u a lot of money bec...
i wil let u 2 enjoy ur life in de future...
i promise...
u say me no concentrate in study, no pay attention, oway learn wat my fren do....
bt hv u c my hardworking,
hv u c wat i gv out,
hv u c my tension...
NO!!!!
bcoz dun wan let u o dwn, i try my best in study....
i stress, i tension...
who can i talk 2....
my fren o gt family support, can talk 2 their family...
bt me?
u o jz wan me 2 success....
bt u o nt concern bout my feeling...
scold scold scold....
i d change my way on spending money...
oso coz of u o...
bt wat i gain...
NTG!!!
in u 2 opinion...
my 2 sis r de main...
tey r ur child...
tey onli can study further...
tey onli hv future...
me?
haha..
on u o eye if i gt future is jz a joke...
u can cal me go out work n 4 them 2 study...
i kno i in secondary school no hardworking n get gd result...
bt nw i try my best...
moreover, tis nt my favourite course...
bt i tink tis is him, my father help me 2 take it 1...
so i dun wan dissapoint u o jz i study hard...
everyday i late sleep wake up early 4 wat...
when i wif my fren i play coz i reali cant concentrate...
bt when tey o sleep i jz gt de time n space in study...
no ppl disturb...
bt u o kno...
jz c my appearance bt nt deep inside...
i jz hope u o can care bout me, kno my important...
tat o...
nt too much rite...
hope u o wil kno...
i put u o in de 1st... nw til 4ever...
bt hope u o oso do it on me...

my fault

i duno y...
i duno y i wil angry her...
i mayb too tension...
o i bengong d...
she is a gd gal... meet her is my pleasure...
everything she do 2 me oway touch my deeper heart...
everytime she talk 2 me i wil b veli hapi...
everyday v sure wil talk 4 once...
bt...
y tat day i no wait 4 de cal nih?
wat wrong on me...
if i gt tension i should talk wif her ma...
y i nt gv her a chance 2 care bout me?
tat day when i angry, i put my phone a side....
when i take up my phone... i saw her msg... SHE GASTRIK...
wat a relief.... i oso hv a shock...
i actually nt angry her de, i jz dissapoint on myself 4 wat i m doing...
i straight apologise 2 her...
luckily she nt angry me...
when talk wif her on tat time... i feel v bec 2 normal d...
at tat time i so hapi...
after talk... i pray 4 her so tat wil nt pain again...
n i hope she wil rmb my advise so tat she wil oway eat smt...


i kno u blieve me de...
i kno u jz joke...
i kno...
bt it too late d when i kno...
sorry ya...


hope ling wil oway b hapi...
hope v can 4ever...
hope v wil hv nt much of quarrel... if gt oso hv 2 settle it faz....

i oso hope v wil meet soon...


you r de onli 1 i wil sacrifice 2 make u hapi...
you oso de 1 i wil nt say tat 2 words.....
i love you...
muaks....